Current mood:	determined
Current music:	Faith - George Michael

Climax
This lj has turned into such a soap opera of late, ye gods. Oh well, at least my life has been interesting of late, if nothing else.

Today was another day of revelations and interesting twists and turns. I wanted to avoid Kristin like the plague on the bus and class, but because the shuttle was 20 minutes late, I got stuck sitting with her. She spent the entire time complaining about other guys that were pestering her. Quite annoying. Then, she kept bugging me about it in class. At this point, my patience with her was wearing thin, so I ditched her and some of my other friends just as class went out.

All remained fine until this evening, when she IMed me again to talk about (surprise!) the guys from yesterday. One guy in particular she was getting really paranoid about, wondering why he didn't IM her 10 minutes after signing on. I told her she needed to stop that, it was silly.

And that's when she admitted that she had been interested in me.

She explained that she did the same thing with me back in the fall, but she wasn't sure about her feelings. She and I got our messages mixed up, I thought she was angry back then when she wasn't, and vice versa. It was such a complete mess. And it could have all been avoided, had I just asked her out.

I could choose to look at this as something I regret. But knowing what I know now about her, I wouldn't date her anyway. So I told her the truth about how I felt about her back then. I suppose knowing about what she's like now, not having asked her out is a blessing. Plus, it really is a confident boost. Kristin is a step beyond what I previously had thought I'd be able to attract, in terms of looks in women. Klaudia too, tho to a lesser degree. yet both of them ended up being attracted and interested in me. Things may have been bungled up overall, but I honestly believe that was for the best in both cases (and if I am really ever desparate, I think I could get laid with either if I really wanted to).

It seems like the cycle is near completion with two of the three headed women monster that's been plaguing me this semester being wrapped up, more or less (Kristin and I still have some things to work out, but we'll be fine as friends, I think...). The only woman that remains is Faith.

The fact that Kristin was into me has given me more confidence in my efforts with Faith, even though Faith is actually a few levels above even Kristin in terms of physical attractiveness. We're going to go to a faculty dinner together on the 11th, we'll see how well that works out.