Current mood:	drained
Current music:	All My Life - Foo Fighters

One by One...by One by One by One by One by One
There is so much going on right now in my life, it's ridiculous.

1. It looks like I'm going to try for grad school after all. I'm applying for a full time position in my office tomorrow. With it, I can go to school for free, albeit part time, for a few years. Would ultimately be worth the shitty pay.

2. My father and I talked again. We're going to try and at least get back to talking together. He and I have some serious issues to work out, especially regarding respect and when its deserved. But I can't not try to talk it out, despite every angry fiber in my being telling me differently. If it works, it does. If not, I'm content with moving on. Ball is in his court.

3. I had a perfect opportunity to ask Kristin out today, but I choked. Again. And it cost me lunch too, since I bought hers for her (long story). She kept saying no one out in loyola is interested in her. I'm starting to think she's as oblivious as I am about signs and hints. The other half of me thinks if I cannot ask her out after all of this, my subconcious has a damned good reason. I've asked women out before, I don't know why kristin is so tough.

4. As if I didn't feel loser-ish enough about the kristin thing, klaudia and I got into this huge debate about relationships. She closes relationships out, she wants to "bear her cross alone" (her words). She feels she's meant to be alone. I don't buy that. I think everyone chooses to be alone or not. She may believe she's meant to be alone, but it's not a cold hard fact of life.

While I am over her now though, I thought I'd see something. I asked her if she'd be interested in me if she weren't putting up these walls, and for her to be honest. I think she actually was. She said there would be interest but that she and I are just not compatible to the point of a relationship (it's true). Her reasons included 1. my virginity 2. my perceived irresponsibility and 3. (this one I don't get) my lack of passion or ambition. It was nice to hear a woman i at least am attracted to be blunt and honest about it. I get tired of women telling me they just don't think things will work or come up with some other excuse. Truth may hurt, but at least I know what areas to work on more. And all the things klaudia mentioned (except the passion part) are true enough. So we'll see what I can do about them.

5. WE HAVE A NEW KITTY! His name is Rufus, and he's a kitten, about 6 months old. Black and white. He's SOOOOO cute and friendly. He demands belly rubs on a constant basis. If I ever get around to some free time, I shall post pictures.

6. Chicago White Sox = 18-7. 'nuff said.

7. Remaining assignments until graduation:
Advertising brochure = due 5/3
Intern Final Report = due 5/8
Advertising final = due 5/10
Management final = due 5/12
Direct Study project = due 5/12

And that's it.